bah

predictable
isn't precisely suitable
i am afraid of change
but strongly need it
not necessarily something drastic
just something
to improve
this repetitive cycle
of recurring events..

if any other person were to tell you this
you'd listen
someeeeeeeeeeeone with life experience
with stories to tell.

really should

of course i know,
i'm just ignoring the fact.
of course i'm aware,
i'm just ignoring the world.
i'm quite capable,
but i'm afraid to try.
i have it in me,
but i can't put forth the effort.
i'm my own anchor,
weighing myself down.
i'm the only thing,
keeping myself from success.
i'll tell you i'm going to try,
but it's just another fantasy.
because i have the will,
but i don't know the way.
i want to make myself happy,
but i don't how to make progress.
i should stop making excuses.
i really should.

fishy

oh how i wish,
i was a fish,
who swam all day,
constantly forgetting,
everything i say.

i won't feel regret,
since i continually forget.
everything i've said,
that i didn't mean,
won't seem as bad the next day,
since the memory faded away.

i won't remember a thing you do,
even the things you've put me through.
i won't be mad,
i won't shed a tear,
i don't remember the things that i fear.
i constantly forget,
the times we've shared.
maybe at one point in time,
there was a time i cared.

but i don't remember.
oh how i wish,
i would remember.
because now i don't know
anything
anything at all